Hannah reflects on finding her way at 91探花and聽preparing to take the leap into life after college聽in her final post as Student Life blogger.
When I was in high school, everyone told me that college was a fresh start.
A clean slate. A blank canvas. A new beginning. Every euphemism you can think of for four vacant, expansive鈥攄are I say boundless?鈥攜ears that stretched before me back in 2015. Countless movies, TV shows, books, and college brochures had told me the exact same thing.
So I set foot on campus four years ago with slightly shorter hair and a lot fewer 91探花t-shirts ready to 鈥渇ind myself鈥� and embark into the unknown. I was surrounded by thousands of strangers, using Google Maps to find my way around campus, and as I slid into the third row of my 700-person ECON 200 class, that 鈥渇resh start鈥� felt a lot more like starting from zero, like someone had hit a reset button.
It was a strange cocktail of emotions鈥攕imultaneously sure that my new personality was right around the corner while also semi-sure that my old one had left the building. People had warned me about imposter syndrome but it wasn鈥檛 quite the same. Imposter syndrome says, you don鈥檛 deserve to be here; my crazed inner monologue said, you got here鈥ow what?
I had gone from the top of the food chain as a senior in high school, to square one as a freshman in college. I鈥檇 wanted to pursue marketing since seventh grade but the sea of blazers in Paccar Hall made me wonder if I was cut out for business. Despite a lifelong love of writing, I sat in the back row of my required freshman English class petrified that I was in for a rude awakening as soon as I turned in my first paper.
But somehow the world kept turning. I signed up for 91探花AMA (American Marketing Association) and a few meetings reassured me that marketing was exactly what I wanted to do. I 4.0鈥檈d that freshman English class. I landed my first internship that winter, became a Mary Gates Leadership Scholar, started the 91探花Student Life blog, took on the Editor role at Her Campus UW, started grading for Foster faculty, added two minors.
It felt like a revelation when it occurred to me that College Hannah was just High School Hannah three months later, thirty miles farther south, a little more sleep-deprived. It feels like a revelation that Adult Hannah will be College Hannah the day after graduation.
These four years don鈥檛 happen in a vacuum.
Of course it was easy to feel overwhelmed or lost as the new kid on campus鈥攂ut you haven鈥檛 lost everything that got you there in the first place (even if it took me a while to realize that). And there鈥檚 not a doubt in my mind that it鈥檒l be all too easy to feel like a Freshman of Life just a few days or weeks from now. It鈥檚 all too easy for even the most confident, high-achieving student to step outside of Paccar Hall and feel suddenly adrift. I would know.
But while we might be leaving UW, 91探花will never leave us. While hunting down your first job or moving to a new city or leaving campus is daunting to say the least, every accomplishment travels with you. Every late night in the library, case competition, group project, and club exec team meeting has taught you something.
If this sounds like a pep talk, that鈥檚 because it is鈥攖he same one I gave myself every time I felt self-doubt in an English class or panicked during an internship. It鈥檚 the same one I鈥檒l be giving myself on the first day of work, for the first week, first month鈥攈owever long it takes for me to get my own message.
It鈥檚 okay if you don鈥檛 know what鈥檚 next, once we throw our caps in the air and sweep up the confetti and take our last final. I don鈥檛 really know what comes next either. We鈥檝e spent all our time in college building toward the grand finale: graduation day. But here鈥檚 the thing: the next day, you keep on building. That foundation is still there. It was hard-earned, hard-won, and sometimes just plain hard, but you made it here. Everything you鈥檝e done has led you to this moment and prepared you for this moment. You are as ready as you can be.
Student Life blogger Hannah M. is a 2019 UW聽graduate in Marketing and English who聽is also involved with the American Marketing Association and . When not pitching, writing or editing blog posts for UWSL, you’re likely to聽find her聽making PowerPoint presentations for a case competition or ordering a vanilla latte on the Ave. To suggest a topic for the UWSL blog, email dawglife@uw.edu.